It’s been a year since this blog started and unfortunately I’ve allowed fear and doubt to quickly stop my pursuit to create. This was to be my medium of mental and creative release. It still is.
So, let’s begin again.
To everything there is a season, and a time to every purpose under the heaven Ecclesiastes 3:1 KJV
So what happened?
At the time of starting the blog, I was fearful yet excited to do so. Ideas were ablaze in my head. Pen to paper, pages overflowed with concepts, planning, mini scripts, the works. Then “reality” hit. The excitement faded. I no longer saw myself as a blogger, a writer, a creative. I saw myself as having one angle, one plane. I saw myself not possessing the abilities I was once excited about honing. I stopped believing in my abilities, in my dreams. My zeal for this new path became deafened by the fear of the unknown. The fear of ridicule. The fear of failing. Fear became the repeating limerick in my ear. So loud, the faith in me became silenced.
For God has not given us the spirit of fear; but of power, and of love, and of a sound mind. 2 Timothy 1:7 No wonder the bible has different versions of "Fear not" scattered all over. Fear will have you crippled stiff with inaction. That's what happened to me.
Why did it take so long?
Besides battling it out with fear, I also moved countries AGAIN. This time a bit closer to home, but a move is a move. New country, new city, new job, new home. I had to uproot and go. Though within the same hemisphere as friends and family, it’s not nearly as close as I’d prefer. For a few months I felt as though I was in a whirlwind of learning, relearning, and unlearning. It was a long, tiresome, tear filled year. But, through it all I gleamed tremendously.
I returned, and saw under the sun, that the race is not for the swift, nor the battle to the strong, neither yet bread to the wise, nor yet riches to men of understanding, nor yet favour to men of skill; but time and chance happeneth to them all. Ecclesiastes 9:11
What did you learn?
This new experience highlighted that I didn’t have a tough exterior. So I quickly built one. It showed me that asking for help is not a sign of weakness. So I advocated for myself. It taught me that others have already forged a path for success. So I clung to those who were willing to foster growth in me (Not everyone is willing to pass on their knowledge).
What are your take-aways?
- Do ‘it’ in spite of Fear. Don’t let fear cripple your progress. Trust me, you will regret not doing ‘it’ more than you will regret failing.
- Take the leap. I’m all about new experiences. Take the job, move to that city, say yes to the date. Its all a learning experience. Some will be great, others not so much.
- Its ok to adapt. You can make changes to the way you respond to your environment while staying true to who you are and your values.
- Ask for help. Don’t suffer in silence. You’d be surprised by the amount of people who are willing to help you.
- Get a mentor. Have conversations with someone who has made it or is closer to where you want to go. They’ve reached/almost at the finished line, they’ve paved the way. Gleam from their wisdom.
What’s next?
There are a few things in the brewing so stay tune for the next post. (You won’t have to wait a year for it)
Stay blessed!!
Love Daydri